something about you.

I never ever brush my hair. Quite precisely, last time someone did or attempted to was the hairdresser who looked disgusted at it!
I love reading, literally.
Music is my life along with friends and smiles. I love smiles
I hate dogs although I have one myself
I love new things but I get tired of them quite easily.
I am very very disorganized and you wouldnt tell by coming to my room cause my mother tries to keep it tidy for me, but I cant help it; im a walking mess.
I tend to say things without thinking them beforehand; most of the time this works out fine, I either sound normal or I make a complete fool of myself; but sometimes it can hurt somebody.
I am useless with my phone sometimes.
My iPod is MY LIFE. And I have to listen to a certain playlist before I sleep.
I always shower at night and it takes me minimum 20 minutes to shower.
My bathroom is my happy place for some reason.
I love my laptop :)
My wall is full of photos, which are now falling off and are meant to be "repaired", but they mean the world to me.
I tend not to pose so much in pictures because every picture taken is like a memory that will last forever of that precise moment, so I would rather look like I seriously look at the time.
I get paranoid about the most random things ever.
I smoke but I dont smoke weed, I pretty much hate it.
I drink and often make a fool out of myself because I either puke or pass out outreagously.
I love my friends, the real ones of course, they mean the world to me. I now know exactly who to trust and who is there for convenience.
I love my life and value every second of it, I can easily say sorry if I know I have done something wrong, otherwise forget about it, I do not please people in order to fit in or make someone feel better about themselves
I hate arrogant and egocentric people, also people who do not appreciate what other people do and people who use other people to hurt me :) Good luck in life!
I do my own thing, and I am very complicated, random, wierd, too loud, maybe too happy sometimes, grumpy at times too, but most important;
I am ME and no one will ever change that. If you like ME, you have learnt how to put up with all the things above, and if you thought I was someone else or like someone else, you got me wrong.
J.x

missing somebody.

its funny how feelings develop over time without you even acknowledging them. Just when you thought things were in some sort of specific way, you realize they truly aren't. Yes, yes, we have heard it all before, you are only 16, hormones this and that.. but it is now when we are building our own personalities.
So it was raining today, as usual, i was sitting next to a guy who looked very familiar. It has been a while since the last time i stopped and thought of this person, but this guy, who did not even look that familiar now I'm looking back on this, made me go back to all my past memories of this time of the year in 2008 for at least one hour. So scary I'm telling you, cause now I'm still the same person I've been for the past months, but somehow, looking back on specific things that meant something in 2008, mean something completely different today.
I miss those things, I miss thinking like i did back then, i miss sneaking out of my best friends house to see someone , I miss the casual flirt and the sneaky meeting ups between clashing English classes, I miss the freedom and the non attachment but i miss the caring and the happiness of just getting a text that meant absolutely nothing to neither of us. Reading them now sort of hurts for some reason.
But most of all, i miss how he managed to keep me occupied enough so that I'd think of something else than myself. Now i feel kind of hollow and egocentric to be honest, don't blame me, blame him or blame destiny for tearing us apart.
Missing all this does not mean I would want it back today, because it would mean that every good thing that has happened since then; would have never changed me, but missing this means that a great part in my life is now making me realize how we really do not appreciate things enough until they are gone for, almost, ever.
J.

first.

As we grow up, we learn that even the person who wasn't supposed to ever let you down, probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it will be harder each time. You will break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You will fight with your best friend. You will blame a new love for the things an old love did.

You will cry because time is passing way too fast and you will eventually lose someone you love. True and real friendship is the one that no matter the distance or the amount of times you have managed to hurt each other, you will manage to make up for it by being a loyal and understanding human being. It requires mutual efforts and committments, but in the end, every little thing you have ever done for a friend is totally worth it. Never let go of someone who knows you well enough and is capable of putting up with your good and bad aspects.

So take many pictures, laugh too much and love like you have never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset, its a minute of happiness you will never get back.

I miss you all with all my heart; and for my newest yet for some closest friends; thanks for being who you are around me.

XO Julia